DreamLife

I am known for having strangely detailed, vivid and bizarre dreams. Like the time I dreamed about my entire future from each of my five kids career paths to the way I decorated my retirement home on the waterfront in downtown Wilmington. Yea, that detailed.

My dreams are very inconsistent though... I have vague and foggy ones as well. It's a mixed bag really. What I don't often have is "bad" dreams. Or anything really negative even. I had a nightmare once, when I was around the age of 12 and all it really involved was a fall into a never ending black hole... I have avoided watching Zorro every since (don't ask). I have had a few dreams where I am being chased, but it never seems like the situation is that serious as I usually find myself a nice cozy corner to crouch in, or a cabinet to crawl in to, and I am happy. (Hmmmm....what does that mean?)

But what I had night before last (Tuesday, early morning actually), was a new thing entirely. I have had friends who have dreams effected by their physical body, for example a friend who would dream she only had one leg if she fell asleep with her legs crossed. But I have rarely heard of people's bodies being effected by their dreams. But maybe, I am just sheltered.

In my dream I received such bad news that it physically hurt, so much in fact that it woke me up and until I realized it wasn't reality, I continued to feel the pain. It would be one thing if it had been a physical injury... but it was an emotional pain. Strange, huh?

What was even stranger was the way it effected me. It wasn't necessarily on my mind throughout the day, but my mood was certainly altered. Melancholy... sensitive... emotionally unstable...

I mean, it was just a dream. But something about it seemed so real. It FELT so real. It makes you wonder, how much of our dreams is really based on reality or at least a possible reality? How much of our dreams stem from our hopes and fears? I tend to think they are random... and if you had my dreams, you probably would as well... but sometimes I have to really question it.

Anyway, in the future I will try not to let dreams control my mood. Somehow, I don't think it's healthy... or fair to the people around me who have to put up with it.